Happiness vs. Motivation

by Lucy
(New York, New York)

I suffer from major depression with suicidal tendencies. When I was first diagnosed after a few suicide attempts, I began treatment with SSRIs.

The first one I tried was Zoloft, which gave me serious migraines but did not particularly help my depression. Paxil did nothing whatsoever for me.

Lexapro, the third one I tried, made me first incredibly manic, and then more depressed than I'd ever been in my life. Needless to say, I stopped taking SSRI's (selective seratonin reuptake inhibitors).

Instead, I began treatment with Lamictal, a mood stabilizer with anti-depressant properties (though it is slightly disturbing that my friend also takes the same drug for Epilepsy).

Lamictal helped significantly, but it ultimately changed who I am, because I used to be an incredibly creative person, and Lamictal stole my creativity.

I wonder sometimes if it was worth it, but then I remember how miserable I used to be, and I know it was. Nevertheless, it's a high price to pay.

I know people for whom SSRI's are a lifesaver, I'd just say that it's important to monitor any psychological drug, because they can easily have unintended consequences.

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May 12, 2009
Happiness vs. Motivation - My Comment
by: George Parigian Jr.

Hi Lucy,

Thank you very much for sharing your story with us. What strikes me upon reading your story is that many times these problems can be managed in a safer and more natural way.

One should not have to choose between happiness and motivation since these two emotions should normally coincide!

There are other approaches to deal with these problems and drug therapy can often make them worse, because drugs will often interfere with the normal function of your body and brain, causing even more problems in turn.

Two things I would recommend are seeing a physician that is trained in "complementary medicine," as these doctors use both natural and drug based therapy in a holistic way.

Such a physician can do testing that may identify a nutritional deficiency or hormonal problem that can cause mental and emotional problems, and correct it with lifestyle changes and minimal use of medications.

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